If any of you like me as a person, realize that it is not me that you like, but my God that graciously lives in me. There is nothing of me that is worth liking. My thoughts are wrong. In the past, and present, I have thought of stealing, lying to cover my own skin, deceiving, doing something for my own benefit that doesn't benefit others or may even hurt others, how things are unfair to me, complaining, how I was better than someone else, how I was worse than someone else, keeping things for myself so I can have more, and many others. Those thoughts were intensified when I wasn't walking with God. I saw who I was without God, and there was nothing to like. The best thing I did was choose to give up myself. Don't misunderstand me, that process isn't finished. I have to give up myself daily and sometimes minute by minute.
Many people, including myself at times, say or believe "Well you only thought about it, you didn't actually do it, that makes you a good person." No, it doesn't. Jesus said that if we thought about it, it was just as bad as doing it. It's hard to admit it, but I am wicked. The things that you like about me are not me at all, the things that you like about me are God living in me. He humbled himself to live in a wicked person like me, for my benefit. I just want to point you to what you actually like, and who you are actually attracted to, and that is my Father.
Sincerely,
God's Tool
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